Veggie Tales

I made a half ass attempt at a half ass diet consisting of veggies and fruits. Raw and cooked. It lasted a week. I lost 5 lbs.
It sucked. I realized that I’m not a half ass person when it comes to certain things, one being my eating habits. It’s a completely different horse when you go from a super strict cleanse juice fast to what I call ‘half ass’. Hunger and lack of will power won this 2nd round. Man enough to admit defeat. Sure I can go 30 days on nothing but super foods but when it came to actual raw vegs and fruits on a daily basis I lost. Adding butter and salt in copious amounts meant I was cheating. Having something in any shade of ‘white’ was cheating as I had bread. Bread…which if you have any kind of background in nutrition education would know that breads are the meth of eating wrongly. Here’s a simple way to lost a good 10 pounds in a month….don’t eat anything ‘white’ – if it’s light and white in color it’s bad for you. Think about it and you shall see I’m white.(right)……

So now I am re-evaluating my next step in my dietary journey of looking like a non-native american.

I am scheduled to pickup my first ‘real’ bike tonight. !!!! Very excited. Very.

I read some other friends of mine are on their own personal goals on weight loss and makes me smile and happy for their choice to change themselves. It seems there are a ton of talkers and just a handful of do’ers. Reading some formerly prolific bloggers who post they are going to do this and that then they never follow thru….you set yourself up for fail that way I think. That would be something that goes for many. Me included…but I’m a real work in progress. Dammit Mr. Miyagi!

Rooting for oneself is a given isn’t?

Yes. It. Is.


Gaming:  I am currently on a gaming hiatus. I don’t know why. I am creating more stuff, drawing more, photoshopping just because. I wouldn’t mind tea bagging some Horde but my PC simply hates Blizzard. Once I give enough blood I’ll be able to afford a ProMac. I love Macs.

My lovely daughter is once again the star of her Volleyball team. This year is different, it’s the first year she isn’t playing for ‘Holy Cross’. She’s playing for her school again but a new school and it’s level of play is about 5 shades higher in skill level which is perfect for what she needed to grow and learn the game. Her season is half-way done and I haven’t missed a game! My father set the precedence for going to almost all of my sporting events. He’d show up dressed in his Art Director suits and cheer me on. I do the same for both kids. Just that now my son has lost all interest in sports besides watching it. It’s the age of his youth I guess. Sucks. Video games, movies, TV = no real motivation…and I can’t relate – even when I was his age….fuggit.

This week’s fall line up summary.

The Office: Yes.
Charlies Angels: No.
Big Bang Theory: No.
Modern Family: Yes. Colombia S.A. has an uncanny …uncanny I say way of producing amazing females.
Any CSI: No.
Community: Undecided.
TOSH.O: premiere had it’s moments…most of it sucked.
Always Sunny in Philadelphia: Yes.

Happy Autumn!




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New Tings.

My wife started Drum class this past winter and loved it. I bought her one for Christmas but after the first drum circle (via I realized I got a ‘small’ one and wasn’t really what one uses for drumming. Being a Native American- the drums I’ve seen, been around are the very very large ones where one beats in unison of has a particular ‘part’.

Our first drum circle and other ones she attended I simply watched or didn’t go. As the changes in my physical weight changed so has my attitude about trying new things and making it a conscience decision to do so – weekly. The ability for me to not just ‘SAY’ I will do something but to actually ‘DO IT’ leads to more opportunity for me (at least) and I get to see the world in a more wider vision. Wow..I sound like a hippie. I plan on purchasing a used one or maybe a new one depending on cost – and sit along side my wife and drum away. Once I get my feet wet my leading goal is to see about getting in locally with another tribe and drum for them. There are some tribes that allow inter-tribal drummers but it’s certainly not common.

My biking adventure is also started – I’m training myself at the gym via spinning/cycling stationary as our last bike pretty much fell apart and we returned it with a bad taste in our mouth and I felt like I really failed by not doing my own homework. This is an excuse and perhaps it’s true – but I can’t really take impact sports very well. My body reacts kinda weirdly lately. Impact like running, jogging. I can do it but the results after are not worth it – cramping, pulls, etc. However, I will hit the treadmill and give it a go considering the last 5k I ran I weighed an extra 35 pounds. I’m focusing on non-impact exercising – cycling and swimming. Less stress on my fragile body. 

All these new endeavors should be fun and entertaining. A body in motion as they say…


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I’m not pregnant.

I’m 100000% to blame for formerly being a fat fucktard. Formerly. 37 days ago I started a: cleanse, fasting, juice fast, etc. In that time I ate via my juicer only organic/fresh produce in the form of vegetables and fruits. I lost a pound a day. In the 30 days of the fasting my total weight loss was 28 pounds. I ‘cheated’ once on my Birthday – to which I had broccoli florets, small peach and something else veggie but can’t remember since the taste of fresh broccoli was all I could think of.

I’ve posted in the past my change of lifestyle over the past 18 or so months, I worked out 3,4, 5 times a week. I was tired of looking in the mirror and not recognizing who that was. I KNOW I’ll never be the person I was but I can build a better me NOW. I started the fasting coming in at 235 pounds – which to me is still HUGE. Consider I weighed in at the Doc’s office at 256 pounds back on Jan 6th, 2011… so a week later from the ending of my fasting I gained 1 pound which fluctuates +1 or -1 this past week. Essentially it’s what ever is in my system be it water or food. Last night I started my physical routine once more but moved up from our small local gym Planet Fitness – which I will miss…to Lifetime Fitness – the grand daddy of inclusive gyms. My son and I shot hoops for 1/2 hour then I did some circuit training with halving my normal reps (15 x 3) then finished off with cycling (spinning) with a goal of 15 miles. I had to stop at 6.5 due to my nips being slowly chewed off by my shirt.

So here I am sitting/standing/biking at a weight of 209-10 pounds. My 9 month old pregnant belly has been reduced to a slight / small / ish version of a muffin over flowing. My pants went from 40 to 34. My goal now is to focus on my cardio and heart health. Stamina coupled with a wide range of sports – that would be cycling, swimming and light jogging. Stuff I can do on my own or with others…

Other changes include less gaming. Sitting on ones ass for more than 2 hours a night is a waste of my time. Sure I still play games but I’m balancing it with hitting the weights, walking the dogs, riding a bike….simple but easy transitions in my life are making huge impacts on my overall attitude as well. I’m looking very forward to the new MMO for Star Wars, more EVE online and soon – Diablo III. Once I get my ProMac set up I’ll also play some WoW. I miss Fredler and his English humor even though he’s a bonafide hick. …

Another cool thing? I have actually influenced a couple people I work with to try certain aspects of my fasting. One even went out and bought a ‘Juicer’. I get almost daily questions about how I did this and that. It’s one thing to see commercials and ads on TV and the Web but it’s entirely different if you see first hand someone you know personally have actual transformations. Some real world advice I give is that if you do plan a fast is to first speak with a doctor. I think a 5 day fasting wouldn’t need a consultation provided you don’t have any preconditions (but what do I know) but beyond 5 days -see a doc, do some homework.

Ever fasted before? Essentially your body will feed off fat stores after 4-5 days of fasting. Your hunger pains will almost cease. Your environment HAS TO BE FRIENDLY. Meaning, don’t go with your friends to a BBQ, Pizza Place or places you would normally go to drown yourself in food. Defeats the goal. My wife tried it for 11 days and lost 10 pounds but once she was off she made food I could see, smell and hear cooking and I had to leave the house. She plans on doing some future cleansing too. I plan on quarterly fasting of 10-15 days as needed. My next planned fasting will occur a week after Thanksgiving. =) good timing!

Here’s a good flick to view too – which also was some inspiration….

I read several blogs, websites, WebMD, etc. to do my own research and then watched a pretty inspiring movie on Netflix called ‘Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead‘ – about a guy my age, Australian, successful in many aspects in life sans being healthy. He decided to go on a 60 day juice fast – the movie chronicles his journey and people he meets along the way.



Lastly — pix coming soon to show the transformation!



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Summer 2011

I’m so very typical and non-random. I post here and there. My social divergence has been Twitter and of course Facebook lately, not so much actual writing and forethought – if one can call posting on a blog forethought – on this awesome blog.

It’s now mid summer and having celebrated a pussified fourth of July in Overland Park with my ladies. I say ‘pussified’ because the city ordinances of OP are that it’s illegal to light up fireworks in the city limits. Being an American is illegal. Yay. So I lit things up anyways in my drive way. Not a single person on the entire block was celebrating the 4th by lighting black cats. Not a single. Very sad.

My summer movie reviews short version:

  • Green Lantern: sucked ass. I don’t care if you read all of the comic books. You know it sucked. Acting, CGI, story line….all sucked ass. Luckily we didn’t pay to see the movie, now that would have sucked. I don’t even recommend renting that POShit. Ryan Reynolds best performance to date was his maybe 10 mins in X-Men Wolverine Origins when he dashed into the African dealers building with his swords deflecting bullets. Please…don’t see this.
  • Super 8: Fantastic. A throw back to E.T./Stand By Me. This case could be the next gen of actors and actresses if Spielberg has anything to do with it. You won’t be disappointed. See it in the theater. Rent it.
  • X-Men First Class:  Another great flick. Seeing the origins of the X-Men – albeit really only focusing on a mind-date raping Xavier and Emo Magneto it’s a perfect summer movie. Visuals, acting and basic storyline. Who knew Kevin Bacon was a good at being bad.
  • Thor: discounting The Green Lantern entirely, this movie would be last on the best list of Comic Book driven movies which isn’t a bad thing. Thor actor was good but certainly not directly cast from the comic book, sure they have to keep him updated but if you ever read Thor you’d know he was very dry. Dry. Like watching a BBC show at 1 pm. You also get a nice bonus with my favorite Israeli actress Natalie Portman. Watch it in the Theater and Rent it. Not so much own.

That concludes my current movie review….I do plan on seeing Captain America and Harry in a few weeks.


Star Wars Galaxies is finally coming to an end. 8 years running I’ve made my estimated 5 billion in credits and thrice that in loot. Mastered all but 2 professions simply because they eliminated them before I could master them. Managed 4 guilds. Was there 3 months in and will be there til they pull the plug and kill the hamster.

WoW: what’s that? Cancelled accounts months ago. Call me when they make it more indepth, challenging and not when some 5 year old can play it and get to level 85 in a week. Not saying I won’t be back, I will…just currently I like things a bit more sandbox’y.

PS3: Love it. Netflix, Renting games, etc. We even have the eye thing – could be very interesting to record some stuff with…afraid of what my son does with it. GT5 I’ve lost pretty much all interest- without DLC most games are meh. I like new content. Played Brink for 3 weeks and even bought it full retail – how dumb… – and most recently my wife and I have been playing Soul Caliber IV. Still need to finish Heavy Rain.

SWTOR:  Can’t wait…but will.

EVE Online:  restarted my free trial. Changes occured from 2 years ago – almost sim like now sorta. Still shitty tutorials. I think they do that on purpose to weed out those without a lot of gaming patience – (me). Still…I see this as my filler til SWOTR.



Kids growing up too damned fast. Is this what my parents experienced? They seemed so professional and composed compared to me.


Very busy! New hire for my assistant and she’s working out so far (knock on wood). I love what I do. I just, at times wonder if it’s appreciated…then I realize it is appreciated  since I’m still getting paid. My creative juices are squeezed by other means; freelance, quid qou pros and self promotion. It’s a fine line.


I’m still less. More muscle. More stamina. Less gut. Less man boobs. I sweat more. I get more injuries. I still eat better. I do have bad days. I still go 3-5 times a week to the gym. I am noticing that I have a growing disdain for those that don’t care for themselves. I see them destroying their bodies and cringe. I don’t say anything verbally or give anyone ‘looks’ but I see their own pain and don’t like it. I want to yell something to the effect that you can change your habits. You can live to see your kids’ kids grow up. You can wear those jeans, shirt and bathing suit. I’m trying very hard to not just do what I say but also pass along those actions to my kids – my son and daughter now frequent the gym more and more with me. My wife also goes and just last month alone last 10 pounds. She’s happier. Small steps indeed.

Happy Day.

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Random Mexican


I’m about as random as a Mexican at a Magic The Gathering Tournament.
You see, the term ‘random mexican’ we believe derived from a “Dojo” tourney report from the 1990’s. It was said in reflection that a top 8 usually had a random mexican who made it that far in the tournament. A token, if you will. Kinda like having a token black person on an MTV reality show unless it’s dealing with Teen Moms. Black Teen Moms apparently isn’t as glamourous as White/Mixed/Mostly White Teen Moms. Yes, today I’m playing the card.

I can pass for nearly everything except Black or Japanese/Chinese (100%). I’ve been mistaken for a lot of races. When I tell them I’m Native American they get a ‘ahhh…’ look. I’m actually pretty rare. Well..not as rare as full blooded Native…I’m a half-breed. Since I can pass for anything it provides me opportunities that wouldn’t normally be out there for me. Like making a top 8 and being called a Random Mexican. Mainly by an old friend we all called ‘Negator’. (magic card reference). Best of buds until he was going thru his own divorce, we all know what a time and focus sink divorce can be! Anywhoo- he was the one whose karma smacked him up like a little red-headed step child from Colombia (S.A).

It was just prior to my divorce and we made a trip to Lincoln Nebraska (inorite?) for a MTG tourney. We drove up the night before and got a room downtown. We decided to hit the strip clubs which in Lincoln, it’s going to be an adventure. Midwest women are corn fed. This means one of two outcomes. If they aren’t already fat now, they will be later…so you have to catch them in the middle.

Our first trip was to the ‘Night Before Lounge’ in downtown Lincoln, it was a Friday night so it was a mix of Frat, Locals and Trucker/Farmers. Pretty packed (no homo). We sit 2 tables from the main area. This is a strip club with alcohol. No juice bar. For those strip club virgins – in the midwest/bible belt – strip clubs means topless only. Juice bar is nude 100%. It’s called Juice because they don’t sell alcohol due to the locals being stingy on sex. Most places that are Juice bars allow YOU to BYOB. I’m more of a non-juice bar visitor. You can see most everything you’d want to without them being 100% nude. One more note if your new to clubs. Never sit at the stage tables directly infront UNLESS you plan on shelling our dollar bills to every dancer in the place. It’s expected that you do if your sitting at the front seats. Sit 2-3 spots away. Better yet, case the place before sitting down. Go to the bar with your wife/gf/buds and order a drink….then casually spot the business expense patrons or bachelor party. That’s where you want to sit. Lap dances(good ones) tend to take up a good 5-7 foot radius…as such you can get pretty much a lap dance for free.
Last tip (maybe), bring a least $100.00 broken down into 20’s and 1’s…I usually did 20′ 1 dollar bills then twenties the rest. You don’t ask Strippers for change. And most importantly, don’t ever get too drunk at a club unless your jobless, credit cardless and with friends.

So back to my karma story.

Negator goes to the champagne room with a local farmers daughter who happens to have a LED hood clit strobe light. I’m able to see thru the thinly veiled curtains and see something blinking as she’s working it. Sure enough it’s a tiny purple light going ‘blinkity blink’. I chuckle. My tournament report is going to be stellar. I buy a souvenir tee shirt and we move on to a bar. Then another. Then finally it’s around 2:30 a.m. bars in Lincoln close later…
We find something off of Cornhusker Hwy and see there’s maybe a dozen cars…walk into a very dimly lit strip club and one girls on stage another lapping and a big neon sign saying ‘shower dances downstairs’. We head on down to see this– and just as advertised it’s chicks in a shower….I chuckle again. Negator nudges me and says he’s hitting the head. I go back up to our table where it’s ‘menu’ shows you what the ladies will do and prices.

Five mins pass and no Negator. I think he’s taking a dump but who takes a shit at a strip club? Then I think, maybe he’s gawking. After I finish my first PBR…he comes up, sits down and were watching the lady on the main stage. Looking around there’s maybe 4 guys in this room. All solo.

What seemed to be a long 8 seconds, a guy on each side of us stands up and yells “Lincoln Police! Everybody STAY SEATED!’. I had a nice buzz going on but was quickly snapped to. 4 more of Lincolns finest show up thru the basement and front door. It’s a bust. It’s 3 a.m. and I have a tournament I need to be at by 8:30 am. I have kick ass blue deck.
What seemed to be the leader of this band of let’s raid a strip club with 3 patrons in it and 8 strippers takes command. He asks for everyones ID…but were to remain seated. One of the policemen from downstairs points towards our table. I’m thinking…’I’m gonna be picked…some random mexican in a danky ass strip club is gonna be profiled!’. The leader walks over and says ‘Stand up!’ I start to get up when he tells me to sit my ass down. He points to Negator and says ‘YOU! Get up!’. he does….they handcuff him. Handcuff another and take 4 strippers in cuffs. I ask very politely…’Officer can I ask what’s going on?’ he replies with ‘Your friend is going to jail for lewd conduct’. I refrain from laughing. I follow him out the the squad car and take a picture of him. I smile at him as he sits in the back seat…I ask the officer what now, bail, etc. He says to follow them to the station. I do.

2.5 hours later, bonded out from his only monies (I wasn’t gonna bail his ass out..,I’m going thru a divorce…fuck that.) As I sat there waiting, I got to know 3 other strippers in the waiting area. Apparently they get busted every few months, especially when the officers see the license plates of out of towners. It’s bread and butter for them. They’re pimp..errr…manager shows up and bails out the rest. I shake hands with him. Nice gig.
Negator steps out, I shoot his pic as he puts his belongings together he’s not happy about the pictures being shot.

During my gaming hey’day I had a website where I was able to get most of the local KC area players together online with forums, reports, etc. This was for the website. =D

We make it back to the hotel to sleep for what amounted to be 1.5 hours rest. I ended up 9th place by making a mental mistake on a key play. Negator punked out early. We met up with a good amount of KC folks. Made it back to Overland Park’s Battlezone where the stories were told all night of our time in Lincoln.

After that weekend, Negator never called me a ‘Random Mexican’ because I mentioned to him on our way back from the Jail house that, that was karma speaking to him directly. What were the odds the policeman WOULD NOT pick me over him (he looks like a spitting image of Steve Buscemi).

True Story.

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Been awhile yo.

It’s frickin Spring! Finally. Freak snow storms begone. Bring on the Torn-a-doze (not really..)….really. Just so nice to come out of the winter with what can be called fresh air of the Kansas/Mizzou area. Ok enough about the weather. What shall we (me) speak (write) about? Me? OK.

Work, as in the past has been very different. My secretary left for another venture in assisting others with pie charts, reservations and data entry. I quickly forgot how much of a time sink data entry and mundane but important duties one has in administrative things. It’s really not for me at this stage in my life, it’s more of a beginning thing or ending thing in terms of career choices. I’m right in the middle of my career. However, it takes time to hire people now a days. It takes weeks almost months before one can get past all the committees of people who need to review, interview and give the green light on people you feel maybe a good fit. I get it. I understand the why’s and reasoning to not just find a qualified candidate and hire them…….(pausing for effect/affect). So here I am juggling two jobs as one with my endless amount of Jedi prowess and recent influx of energy*. I do her job, I do mine. Whence I worked at a place called ‘Swingster/American Identity’ I juggled 3 people’s jobs for 6 months. I was the Graphic Designer/Job Executioner/Art Director. After 3 months of my boss taking his time ‘hiring’ a replacement I went to his office with a written proposal that I take on the full responsibility of the ‘Executioner’ which paid at the time 25k….they could eliminate the  job position and simply pay me 25% more. I was getting the hang of the job – that included vendor quotes, job work flow assignments, logo library, digital asset management, invoices and billing. My boss read the proposal…looked up at me…and laughed. He said “are you kidding me Nicholas?”  I didn’t blink an eye…”Yes, 100%” it makes sense does it not?” I went on for a good 1 min pleading my case stating I’d save them 18k-20k a year plus health, training–etc. He laughed more and then said ‘You’ll do both jobs for the same pay, if you don’t agree you can always leave…anymore questions?’.
One month later they hired a replacement for the position…they quit a week later…hired another…they quit 2 days later…hired another and quit 1 month later…I laughed very loudly each time.
My former boss is now retired from the design business and is now in the Lake of the Ozarks with his wife and kid – they have a Fishing company where they get hired out to show tourists good fishing holes.

So as I done said I’m getting used to what she done did in my department. I have maybe a dozen good candidates…we shall see. It does make me appreciate MORE what my secretary did. Flip side is I don’t think she ever appreciated what I did. Youth.

My fatness update: less is more! Just over 230 now…I go to the gym 3-4 times a week now, still eating right with an occasional splurge (no homo) like BBQ. My clothes fit better, jeans I wore years ago are wearable, I’m wearing ‘Large’ vs. 2-3 XL’s. It’s amazing the energy I have. Sex 4-6 times a week with some more than once excursions in one night!! I KNOW RIGHT?? It’s pretty amazing what I’ve been doing, the habits being normal now – with eating good quality food. Apples, oranges, nana’s, strawberries over chips and cookies. It’s also an environmental thing where my son and wife are also working out with me and eating right. I know I sound like a broken record but I can’t help it. I wish I did this 15 years ago….

Politics: My cynicism knows no bounds. Obama maybe the ultimate fucktard and having the uncanny ability to do so without so much the media making light of his actions. 2012 is his unless the lesser of 3 evils has a good candidate not named Palin. The Government as a whole pretty much doing what they’ ve been doing since the dawn of Democracy- bickering, blaming and not actually doing anything beyond their own self interests.  Nothing changes. Where is all the CHANGE Obama? I had a fleeting moment of 1/2 hour back in October 2008 that maybe you’d be different….you are simply, no less no more than a packaged politician who can speak well. Period.

Religion: Meh. Although I did explain to my kids the lovely history of Catholics and specifically the decades cover up of the child molestation by it’s clergy and it’s awesome ways of ignoring the crimes of it’s top members and leaders against innocence for years. Catholics certainly don’t have a monopoly on rape, it’s everywhere…it’s just the plain hypocrisy of the Catholics and it’s outdated ‘rules’ it imposes on it’s followers. It’s the acceptance of what it has covered up and continual cover up that reinforces my opinion on organized religion. I believe in a higher being but not under duress or coercion based on man’s ideals. No thanks.

Gaming! :  My mage Husker hit 85 a month ago. My Dreaming is almost 83. I play maybe 6 hours a week now. I play my PS3 less since it’s nice out but when I do fire it up it’s usually Netflix. My guild is still alive ha ha – with 3-4 of us playing weekly. Joined up with Fredler’OhNoez’Logtar’sWifePM’sHimOverHisChoiceofPetNamesOMGREALLY?
Guild. I almost, almost re-upped for EVE online but then remembered the long ass learning curve, hours and hours mining….I’m now waiting for Diablo 3. It should be a nice refreshing game. Blizzard rarely does gaming wrong.

Guess I’m done. Good Night Ladies. Oh I’ll leave me with one of my favorite eye candy goddess’sszzzzzzz! Monica.


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Jesus Kites

Been a long time since I stepped in here. Lot has happened. Notice I said “Lot”, not ‘A lot’. Wife was fucked by catty women and lost her job. In particular two overweight fat bottomed girls. Younger women. Younger than my Wife. That translates to the younger feeling scared of their position in life. When a younger person is in charge in a corporate setting many things can go awry in a heartbeat. The worst mistake one in that position (young fat bottomed white chick in charge) is to underestimate older more experienced people. Once they feel ‘superior’ to their elders it’s pretty much a lost cause for those not in power. Meh. Long story short, fat bottomed white chicks under 30 will see Karma sooner or late.  If I come off bitter, I am. My love worked her ass off for the company. Hours and hours, sacrifice, dedication..all understatements as to what she gave for this company….while it’s not a rare story…Company/Management take advantage of their employee’s…it’s a cross section on society in general. I’m not going to go all “Logtar’d” on you with foreigner/immigrant self righteous bullshit….let’s just say life isn’t fair an my wife was made an example in this case.

I lost more fat. Jan weighed 255. Now this morning 230. Still high but I’ve made a lot (kek) progress. Mainly food constriction and starving myself but without the pains. I also DO eat healthy. Not going to be one of those ass tards who post about their weight loss and all gung ho about it on their blog then continue to eat Donuts, Pizza and Waffles and never speak of their efforts because they talk the talk but don’t do something about it. Noticed Tony of Kansas City has been putting on the pounds. Read his The Pitch article last week…and I’ve seen him in RL at the station and occasional self promotion snapshots..months back and he was a lot less of him back then. Maybe it’s the sweatshirt, unkept hair and dreadful baseball caps? He has to know chicks don’t dig big ass guts….well maybe his girlfriend does..or at least doesn’t say anything to his face. I was ashamed of my ‘baby’ belly and still am…but motherfuckindammit I ain’t gonna be that person, that walking cliche of fatness. I want to live longer than you. I want to be around for my family. I want my kids to be proud of me. I want my wife to be able to put her arms ALL around me. I want to see my dick.
Thank god – wait..should I capitalize god or leave it non-caps? It is a title…but it is also an adjective and could be a noun. The word god has so many meanings and context and subtext. I’ll go with god. Not some intimidating like GOD. Where was I….yeah Thank god I have support to continue with my goals in losing the fat.

Welp I think I’ve done the duty. Wife is prepping the room for sleep. That means turning the fan on. Turning off her computer. Washing her hands. Putting things away. I sit here listening to Ben Folds wanting to play and write longer but my domesticated husbandry kicks in and feel guilty and will lay down with her…….

p.s. Hope you like the new look and banner.


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